it all started out as a joke....

I met my best friend for quick coffee break tonight & what I concieved as a simple joke soon smacked me square across the face - I'm going to start a blog! Everyone is doing it now a days, right? Why can't I? As we sipped our savory lattes I envisioned what it would really be like if I were to create a blog. Would I want it to be a journal of sorts, keeping track of my day to day routine? Would I want it to be one of sarcasm & wit giving everyone who reads this a glimpse into the inner gears of my mind? Would I want it to be serious, full of heartfelt emotions? Well, I've decided that regardless, I'm going to start blogging; and not for anyone elses sake but my own. This is dangerous territory that I'm about to embark on. It may turn out to me more of an experience than anything else.

When I was a young girl I started to keep a diary. I never worried about what anyone thought of the words that came from inside of me, I just wrote. Sometimes about what the weather was like outside, sometimes about the way my mother scolded me over my rotten actions & sometimes about the boys that I thought were cute in my grade school. As I aged I went through many more journals each entry becoming more mature & insightful. I learned that I was a person of many thoughts and feelings & that I could truly express myself through the pen in my hand. I kept a journal throughout most of my adolesence, and sadly as I moved on in life those translations were lost. After graduating high school I moved into about three different apartments in less than a year and half. In between each move, I lost more and more of my personal belongings. Awhile back I came to the starting realization that during one of my moves, I had completely lost my high school diploma. So as you can imagine, journals, diary entries and first hand accounts of my life through the years wound up in a dumpster somewhere.

I quit writing for a good while. I went through most of my teen years writing on a constant basis, song lyrics, poetry, letters to myself & short memos of my life in few words. Writing has always been a release for me, a way to cope with my own emotions, rationalize my decisions, sulk over losses, reflect on mistakes. I often stop to sit down & write, even if it's just for a few moments; but in the busy days of my life I rarely have the time to actually sit down & reflect. I'm hoping that in this age of technology, sitting down on the computer to write a blog will allow me a little more time to do such. (Remember, I was a child raised on a computer, I am no exception to my cliche' generation. Fortunately, I can type about as fast I talk.)

I am not starting this blog to let everyone stay up on my life, in fact at this point I dont know that I really even want anyone to read it. I am writing this blog for me. I'm going to document my life in a sense. I want to write again, keep up to speed on myself (I've been told I have the memory of a goat, so the more I document my life (in any shape or form), I figure the more I'll remember in my old age! HaHa) I tend to get caught up in the day to day & am hoping to be able to take some time out every now and again to let myself get lost in my writing. I'm not sure how this is all going to work - I'm sure that my writing style will change from post to post. Generally speaking, I write best when I am unguarded & I let the words flow freely out. I guess I'm going to start writing letters to myself. Maybe that's what I should name my blog? Letters to Myself ..... Hmmmmm

So it begins ......